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i la la la looove veronicaaureus.
&& i hate sandy nonna<3
dont cry because its over, SMILE because it happened.
BE KIND OR THE EAGLE WILL ATTTTTACK YOU! D:

In one tree hill, Payton loves Lucas. She always had. But in the fifth season Lucas tells Payton that he hates her. Payton had thought he would tell her
"hes inlove", insted that was the exact opposite.
But because Payton had loved Lucas, and he didnt love her back,
she vented to her friend (Hailey)
Hailey brought Payton to the roof top, and started to throw
water balloons onto cars. And, so.. Payton tried it.
This was how payton felt better about herself,
this was the only way she could smile,
but even then she wasnt fully healed.

as for me, I write.
I guess I write cause not many know.
Not many know what i went through..
nor do many know how i feel.
I have close friends,
just I dont say to much.
I have a few bestfriends..
But even then,
I dont matter to much
I dont know who to trust anymore.

Do you know the saying,
"If you want something bad enough, you'll get it"?
In my belif, thats total bullshit.
cause some arent as lucky as others.
Belive me when i say,
"I wanted someone more then you'll ever know."
because it's true.
And not only did i not get that someone,
but that person lied to me, left me hanging,
but after he lead me on.. there I was in my room,
once again.
Because i fell for it once more.
I was heart broken, i cried for weeks.
I love how he made me feel.. and even to this day
I get that feeling,
just like I did the first time I met him.
And to this day, I still remember our first words.
me: I like your hat ! (smile)
him: THANKYOU! (huge smile)
After that I added him on msn, we started talking,
we started to flirt, then.. I told him how i felt.
We stopped talking for two months.
You can say I was "depressed".
Lately, Im not in the mood to talk, to smile,
to have fun, nor to laugh.

I miss him, our talks, and jokes.

And i still remember the dance.
We danced to crushed, we made jokes.
After that, i thought that was our song was "crushed"
Until he started dancing with his new girlfriend to "our song"

8months.
Its now 8 months.. it represents how long i loved him for
but it also represents how long i've known him.
Yes, btw i do belive in love at first sight.

like Payton he now "hates me"
but unlike Payton and Lucas
they ended up together.
and thats something I never figured out how to do.

Sunday, January 17, 2010 - 6:42 PM