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dont cry because its over, SMILE because it happened.
BE KIND OR THE EAGLE WILL ATTTTTACK YOU! D:
JessicaMedeiros
AGE 13 bitches. get @ me (; SEX im a male -.- bitch. I LIED, FEMALE :)
BACKROUND PORKCHOP to the fullllest (L)
LIKE fooood! && cake, choclate milkshakes.. yum, VERONICA AUREUS (L) annnd, that chick sandy nonna.
I don't
just done.
how everyone says shit just to put me down, & how everyone says stuff cause they like to see me sad, cause some how it cheers them up.
and take it in, how next year nobody will there to protect me,
not that i cant fight my own battles.. but just im going to miss having someone to look up to and smile.
here i am, doing my homework but still asking myself, why i should even do it.
then i answer and i say, cause i dont want to be compared anymore to him
i get compared to him for everything,
marks, singing, and the thing i love most, acting.
aha, why does he have to be better at everything?
my teacher saying he should help me with my singing if i want to be in the play, wtf ?
if you want him to help me so much, why dont you get him to do my part
scince he does it SO fucking well.
my parents yelling at me, saying how i should get 80's & higher, cause he has the marks, like shut the fuck up.
im sick of being compared for everything,
and im tired of working my ass off for nothing.
im just.. done (Y)
Tuesday, March 30, 2010 - 6:44 PM
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i havent wrote a blog for a while and so i just wanted to say,
IM HOME
from florida, and you know its actually nice to have your own bed,
and also taking a shower in your own shower,
although canada is cold & rainy
im glad to be home, just to see my friends
cause nothing else makes mee happier (L)
well, there actually is something that makes me happier
but i havent seen him for a while now..
but whatever, i have a smile on my face most of the time just to make others happy around me.
and this is kind of random,
but im starting to feel like i did before..
how i used to be compared to all the faces around me
how their either smarter, or prettier then me,
and after these things are said over and over again,
it starts building a deeper whole in my chest that makes it hurt even more.
it makes me feel like im not good enough, and that i shouldnt be here anymore, and i ask myself "why me?"
they say, how im girly girl, or what not.. but thats not who i want to be
they say im rude, but really im nice.
they say that they're smarter then me, but i dont go up to my full potential
they say how im not pretty enough, but when they do say im pretty they say thats all guys want me for.. and not for my personality.
so i guess if their trying to say im not good enough for them,
then trust me, i got the message.
& it was loud and clear,
-so thanks to everyone who thinks im not good enough,
cause i know im nothing close to perfect, but trust me hunny
im closer then you are.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010 - 5:11 PM
now call me crazy :$
am i crazy because today was a great day for me?
am i crazy because all it took was that someone to talk to me for five minutes?
that someone..
today was the day, i could crawl from out of my shell, and put a smile on my face.
you know those days.. where all it takes is one person to make your day, but truly make your day? and you want to scream, and dance.. just because your full of joy?
today was that day for me.
now, call me crazy.
it felt for a while that my thoughts were negative..
i kept asking myself
are we going to be friends again?
then i kept answering,
no, we wont.. everything changed from that day on.. you cant go back, jessica. so stop trying,
just give up.
until, today changed my thoughts complety,
and hey i know its just five minutes..
but today actually felt like we would become friends again, that we were friends.
it made my day, because it was from the one who i had the strongest feeling for.
Thursday, March 4, 2010 - 6:24 PM
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