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JessicaMedeiros
AGE 13 bitches. get @ me (; SEX im a male -.- bitch. I LIED, FEMALE :)
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LIKE fooood! && cake, choclate milkshakes.. yum, VERONICA AUREUS (L) annnd, that chick sandy nonna.
I don't
truth be told*
i know i know, my writting sucks now. nor can i write anymore.. have you noticed? whatever, i hate my fucking life. cause not only do i have no more friends, but the guy i really like is gone to, you happy? he left. all my friends left, i just want things to go back to normal, when everything was just "sad" with no drama.
now life is sad with the drama. i fucking hate this, i really do.
i fucking hattttttttte THIS. FUCCCCCCK.
i want to die
so until next time, bye blogspot,
ps- i dont think any times could get any worse then this.
so there may not be anything else to blog about..
peace. lets hope i dont get my head ripped off, ha.
:(
Thursday, September 30, 2010 - 2:01 PM
yeah..
he said "i like myself, doesnt everyone?" without even thinking i said "really? cause i dont like myself.."
not cause im a bad person, just i dont have one close friend who actually believes me, none at all. I dont know why, I told them millions of times I didnt say that, yet they refuse to believe me.
I would never do that. Ever. All my so called friends turned their backs on me, i dont have a single soul who i can turn to other the sandy.. but shes gone to highschool. as for now, i dont now what im doing or anything, i cant skip school forever, and i cant hide from it all, why wont the believe me? :( as wet drops fall down for my face I wonder if it will ever be okay again.
I just want to move away, or even get hurt and get rushed to emergency.. I know that sounds wrong, but sometimes i just wonder if people will ever care, or ever believe me.
im not a liar, i didnt say that. Honest truth, I didnt. Now everyones mad at me, and i have nobody.. I'm having a hard time with everything, i hate my life so much and i really want to escape from it all, from everything. My past doesnt determine my future i know i did some pretty terrible things in my life but nobody can get past what i did.
So, im sorry for anything you think i've done. but just because you all think i did something i didnt im not going to apologize to get on your good side, and when you all come back.. if you do, ill know the time i needed you the most you werent there for me.
cause im having a pretty ruff time. nobdy notices, but they sawme cry they know im hurt, they think i lied..
Well, everyone has a label a whore, the jock, the nerd, &me Oh, well im that girl who's a "liar" the "loner" the one that misses her bestfriends in grade 9. < thats what people see me as, but obviously nobdy notices or cares, cause if you did you would listen to my side of the story..
- 1:47 PM
knew it.. woah to wowww. :(
they all refused to listen to me, and they all told me they wouldnt turn out to be like the year before theirs.. Turns out, i was right.
I miss having to see there faces everyday, or chilling with them at recess,
i miss having an actual conversation with them & i could actually consider them one of my bestfriends.. I miss the laughs and the memories, time flew by..
its like now i have to make all the effort to keep intouch, its like im the only one who actually misses them.. its like i have to make plans to chill, or i have to say hi, I mean i guess we were never really that close, right? I believed all of you, fell for all of your lies, and now? where the fuck did you all go? please tell me..
Cause to be honest, im a bit confused,
while im sitting in my desk thinking of them their meeting new people, rushing to get to their lockers.. man, i feel useless.
they say you dont really know what you have until its gone.. but i can truthfully say from the bottom of my heart that i always knew what i had, who i had, and i can also say not only do i miss them all but i appreciated each of the many things they did for me.. but now i have nobody.. i try to hold back the tears but they were my life.. i guess i wasnt as important to them as they were to me. I guess im another sammie from friggen jersey shore,
whatever, i knew this day would come.. i knew it, anyone who tells me otherwise
you all turned your back on me when i needed you the most.
Bye i guess, you'll all be missed
Friday, September 24, 2010 - 5:15 PM
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