i hate sandy nonna<3

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i la la la looove veronicaaureus.
&& i hate sandy nonna<3
dont cry because its over, SMILE because it happened.
BE KIND OR THE EAGLE WILL ATTTTTACK YOU! D:

let the tears fall, cause its coming to an end.

im trying to hide the fact that their going to leave me next year,
im trying to just.. live for now.
but its hard to live in the now, because of peoples captions on their photos, or new blogposts.
and im sorry..
for whoever im not paying attention to,
its just im to caught up in the grades eights drama, and to caught up with the students in grade eight.
i dont know how much im going to say this but im going to miss them so much, im going to miss their voices, their laugh, our handshakes,
and epic hugs.
mostly im going to miss someone to look up to,
im going to miss having somebody there to talk to, and tell them about everything that is going on..
what am i going to do ?
everyday when i arrive at school im going to be torn apart.
and ill think.. wow, its a diffrent world, they used to come here..
im going to miss everything, they changed me,
im going to miss being loved, or feeling important.
i can already imagine it..
coming to school, walking alone..
and feeling alone, feeling like nobodys coming to save me anytime soon
i imagine it as a world where i cant escape it..
like a black hole, with many people inside, but then theres me,
ill be stranded alone, nobody to help me get over my tears.. or my fears
for that fact. im going to miss them so much !
thinking about it now, makes it feel like the time is going by quicker.
it feels like the univerce is making it go by quicker so i can be all alone,
so i can be torn, so i can have no friends.
im going to miss sandy nonna, veronica aureus, jessica depao, &danaca camara the most..
but honestly thats not the only people im going to miss..
ill miss him,
so much, and so badly.
what will i do without them all? somebody please fill me in cause im having a hard time understanding all of this.
why did i have to be a year younger? and why did i have to become friends with those people? i promised myself i would stop.. with all of them and everyone in their grade, but i cant!
because they changed me, i love them..
its their last year i know, but dont forget, its my last year to
if your wondering for what,
its my last year i have with myself, my last year of actually being me.
when they leave ill be a whole diffrent person,
depressed child, sad, torn, alone, and serious.
why does it have to be like this?
why cant i be in grade eight?
fuck why the fuck cant i be in grade eight? this is stupid !
i dont want it to happen..
i guess i have to let it be, what happends will happen
i cant change it.
only i wish i could change it.
im going to miss you guys so fucking much.. no words for it,
i just want you to know i will never forget you,
not when im 16, not when im 30 and sure as hell not when im an old wrinkly grandma.
iloveyousomuch, and words cant explain (L)
im going to miss you,
and everything that ive learned..
you taught me how to be a real person, cause before i met you
i was the girl that was alone and sad,
i guess im going to have to re-in-act that again next year.
bye..

Thursday, February 25, 2010 - 4:30 PM